Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

A journey to healing from complex trauma.

I would rather be alone than…


I would rather be alone, than deal with people who have any degree of fake-ness, selfishness, egocentricity, narcissism, tell lies – even to themselves.

Not because I believe those people are evil.

It is due to the fact that I have endured so much abuse and harm from so many people, that I cannot handle any more.

I am at the point in my life where I would rather be alone. I actually like my own company now, whereas, I never used to. I have always ‘needed’ people and now I don’t.

Yes, I feel lonely sometimes, but better that, than suicidal because of people’s issues.

I’ve been on the receiving end of people’s issues my entire life.

I will NOT endure it anymore.

People want to push me into being involved with people, they think they know what is best for me.

They don’t.

Author: Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

I am a survivor of complex and multiple trauma and abuse, who at the age of 40, began my healing journey. I am using my journey to recovery and healing, to help others, to help survivors feel less alone, validated, encouraged and to enable others to understand themselves more. Complex trauma, particularly from severe, prolonged childhood abuse, is profoundly life changing. Complex trauma produces complex adults. The journey to recovery is a painful, often lonely, emotional daily challenge and it is my aim to encourage others in their daily battle. ~ Lilly Hope Lucario

11 thoughts on “I would rather be alone than…

  1. Exactly! The term “lonely”, isn’t even an accurate description for me now-it is more like “peaceful”…

  2. I couldn’t agree more!

  3. I called off my first engagement (thank you God) when I realized I would rather be alone by myself than lonely with someone else. I think that is the most awful feeling in the world! YOU know what’s best for you, and when you are ready and meet others with whom you can have a healthy, mutually giving relationship, you’ll know it.

  4. I don’t know if it is old age or the fact that I was in an abusive relationship for 10 years but the end result is I really don’t care what people think of me and I just don’t tolerate users, liars, fakes, or flakes in my life any more. My time is too precious to waste on people with hidden agendas. Like you I would ,much rather be alone and I have never felt more at peace than I do at 56. There are days I feel a little lonely but not enough that i would give up the freedom and peace it gives me.

  5. I have a son who feels the same way.

  6. very well said…a period most of the people face in their life.

  7. I’ve handled it all my life like this, have been alone all my live, it’s hard but okay

  8. Exactly a true definition of how one becomes so enclosed with so many barriers built up to protect oneself from having to endure any further detriment. Nobody is exempt from being kept at a distance, strangers, associates, friends, extended family or immediate family. You put yourself in a protective invisible cube, surrounding your material physical presence with a repulsing magnetic energy. Being alone is your only self-defence from experiencing the unwarranted or harmful effects of negativity that could draw one into a vortex of perplexity and suppression.