Is this fair, possibly not – but being who I am, having had my life, having a life threatening severe illness…
It is necessary.
I need to weed out the unhealthy ego’s, the egocentrics, the narcissists, the liars, the selfish, the people who are potentially going to hurt me, or already have.
Am I too hard on people. Probably. In normal circumstances, I have no doubt this would be wrong, but I am not dealing with normal circumstances.
No doubt I would be told by some I ‘should’ do XYZ, I ‘could’ do XYZ… Yeah shoulda, woulda, coulda, I’m dealing with a life threatening illness, my needs are different.
I know my needs and I know what I have to do to stay safe. I have learned, that my needs are important after all.
In my experience, most people are not real, they display what they want you to see. It’s only when tested, the real person becomes revealed. And I know what to look for, and what to assess.
In my situation, I have to know who the real person is.
And I would rather be alone, than in the company of people, who have a greater potential to hurt me.