Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

A journey to healing from complex trauma.

I do realise how much courage I have. It is also considered the most needed virtue.

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I have a huge amount of God given internal courage.

I have survived a lot, been independent, always worked and dealt with a considerable amount of abuse and severe trauma.

I have my weaknesses, I am sinner, but I know them and I am working on them and do not use my faith as a ticket to sin, as far too many religious people do.

I also have the capacity to stand up to abusive people, regardless of whether the harm is intentional or not, because harm is never okay and it always needs dealing with.

I have spiritual courage. I am not one of these ‘we all sin, we must not judge’, useless types.

I am not someone who says ‘well he repented’ – when there is no evidence of that and let abusive people get away with it. That’s not spiritual courage or spiritual wisdom. Thats apathy.

That’s giving yourself an easy, comfortable life, and not the life of a real Christian. It is nothing to do with grace or compassion, it is about weakness.

Most people want an easy life, regardless of whether that is wise, or helps others.

Most people lack spiritual courage, lack spiritual integrity, lack spiritual wisdom.

I see this clearly.

They say courage is the most needed of all virtues, because without it, no others can be carried out to a level that is required.

I believe that and is why so many religious people, so many church people fail miserably at being witnesses.

It takes internal courage to admit weaknesses, to admit fully when wrong, to have self insight, to have integrity to honesty, to accept the need to seek wisdom, to not be a sheep, to have real repentence etc.

It takes courage to have empathy, to put yourself in the shoes of abusers the way I have.

It takes courage to see things from the needs of an entire community of trauma survivors and not force my own views on forgiveness, empathy for abusers etc because that is wrong.

I do see the needs of others, because I am not egocentric – because selfishness and egocentricity are about being weak, not about courage and strength.

I am not willing to compromise on the wisdom I have attained in life.

I have the courage and integrity to stand by it, and not allow myself a…..nice, easy, comfortable life.


Author: Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

I am a survivor of complex and multiple trauma and abuse, who at the age of 40, began my healing journey. I am using my journey to recovery and healing, to help others, to help survivors feel less alone, validated, encouraged and to enable others to understand themselves more. Complex trauma, particularly from severe, prolonged childhood abuse, is profoundly life changing. Complex trauma produces complex adults. The journey to recovery is a painful, often lonely, emotional daily challenge and it is my aim to encourage others in their daily battle. ~ Lilly Hope Lucario

One thought on “I do realise how much courage I have. It is also considered the most needed virtue.

  1. When someone writes from the heart, the words are amplified in genuine, sincere volumes of integrity. Quality human virtues of many that you are endeared with. I always see people on an overall perspective, not only how they react to you but how they are with others. For if they are of a demeaning nature to one, they could be of that nature to you. Depending upon certain situations or personalities, knowing that one may not see eye to eye with everyone. Most of the time I am writing as if I am writing to myself. So what I try to or may convey is a mirror reflection of my thoughts of comfort or support rebounded back to me. Not everybody does perceive it in that way as I know from personal experience or from the short time I have frequented the internet on the various communicative sites. If I’m making any sense?