Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

A journey to healing from complex trauma.

Been homesick for this, my entire life.


To have a heart that isn’t filled with so much pain.

To have anyone understand my soul. I accept, this is not going to happen.

It isn’t reality. Painful. But, I need to accept it.

The homesick part, is because I have never had a home, where I am understood, where I belong.

I don’t feel like I belong anywhere, never have. I don’t ‘belong’ in this society I live in. I think it is partly self abandoning, which I read about in Pete Walkers book.

I dream daily, about my home with Jesus, in the future, where I will have an eternal home and feel no more pain.

It’s the ultimate ‘something to look forward to’.

Author: Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

I am a survivor of complex and multiple trauma and abuse, who at the age of 40, began my healing journey. I am using my journey to recovery and healing, to help others, to help survivors feel less alone, validated, encouraged and to enable others to understand themselves more. Complex trauma, particularly from severe, prolonged childhood abuse, is profoundly life changing. Complex trauma produces complex adults. The journey to recovery is a painful, often lonely, emotional daily challenge and it is my aim to encourage others in their daily battle. ~ Lilly Hope Lucario

2 thoughts on “Been homesick for this, my entire life.

  1. I get this. I have a family and a wonderful home. But when things get hard, I often say I want to go home….and I’m never exactly sure where it is that I might be thinking about.