Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

A journey to healing from complex trauma.

I can now verbalise in counselling, words I couldn’t 6 months ago. Progress.


While talking in my last counselling session, I said the word ‘rape’.

I couldn’t have done that 6 months ago.

Getting certain words out, verbally have been understandably very difficult.

I’ve had a very common habit of skirting around certain words, which is to minimize it myself, to cope.

So, this is progress and right now, I’ll take any progress I can see and hold onto it.

I used the word ‘rape’ in relation to Cardinal Pell and his need to minimize the abuse that occurs within the Catholic church, with him saying ‘he doesn’t like the term child sexual abuse, it’s ugly’. My response to that is ‘okay lets call it what it really is then ‘child rape’.

And I actually voiced this. And used ‘that’ word.

I have written it many times here in my blog. Written a poem about it.

But, writing is always so much easier than verbalising it.

I’ve always been better at non verbal communication, which is weird, considering I talk too much.

Its why I was considered so good at ballet. Not just excellent technical ability, but the ability to express a story and a full range of emotions – with my body and facial expressions, and no words.

It’s why I write better than I can verbally express.

But, the ability to actually say things and not be squirming in my seat, is progress.

I’m going to write that again.



Author: Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

I am a survivor of complex and multiple trauma and abuse, who at the age of 40, began my healing journey. I am using my journey to recovery and healing, to help others, to help survivors feel less alone, validated, encouraged and to enable others to understand themselves more. Complex trauma, particularly from severe, prolonged childhood abuse, is profoundly life changing. Complex trauma produces complex adults. The journey to recovery is a painful, often lonely, emotional daily challenge and it is my aim to encourage others in their daily battle. ~ Lilly Hope Lucario

2 thoughts on “I can now verbalise in counselling, words I couldn’t 6 months ago. Progress.

  1. I agree- any progress, no matter how small, indicates transformation at work.

  2. progress and recognition of progress are good, in any increment. Soon enough the chunks of progress will be bigger!