I know that I have ‘woken up’ – to the realities of life, spiritually, socially, psychologically.
I see all the crap peddled in society, how society does not realise how controlled they are, and yet believe they are free.
I see deeply into human behaviour, and I see so much that is not okay and so much harm caused as a result.
I know I am an empath, who feels and hurts deeply for others and having this, is not fun, it is actually painful.
I have woken to the reality of Christianity, how badly it fails and how much harm it causes, which most church people will either ignore, or reject.
I have woken up to realise how ego’s, apathy, narcissism are increasing in society rapidly, and how much harm this causes in the world.
I have woken up to seeing the world and all the suffering, starving people etc people enduring the kinds of pain, no-one should ever endure.
And I painfully hate it all.
I have woken up to the reality of my own life, my own past, and the severity and cruelty of it all.
And I have woken up to the acceptance that I have no emotional support, and that my life now is existing, not living, only in even more pain, because of all I have woken up and now understand. Continue reading