I know you hate me. I know why. I understand who you are and why.
I understand that you don’t understand how abused by our mother and your father, you were.
I understand you were trained to hate me having support, to hate me having love.
I understand you were trained to keep the family secrets.
I understand you have unhealthy/shame based loyalty to our mother, your father.
I understand that you need to hate me, because you have that deep envy within you, that I achieved so much with my life, that you have never been able to achieve.
I understand you have dark hatred within you, towards me, even though I cared about you both, more than our mother and your father did.
I understand you will not accept that.
I understand you cannot allow yourself to see the truth.
I accept where you are at and why.
I do not have to like you. I don’t.
I do not have to like your lack of empathy, your lack of compassion, your lack of remorse, you capacity for such dark hatred, your need to hurt others the way you do.
I do not have to like your envy, your dark hearts that developed because of our childhoods.
I do not have to like, that you lie about things that you have no right to speak of – because you were too young to know what was occurring.
I do not have to tolerate who you are, or have you in my life.
And I am allowed to be angry about what you do.
But, I will always love you. Because love, real love is unconditional.
And I do love you both, despite everything.
And the really sad part is….I looked after you like you were my own children. And you know that deep down.
Yet, you hate me, because I now speak the truth… Continue reading →
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