Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

A journey to healing from complex trauma.

Cancelling appt with psychiatrist this week.


I am aware if I talk about certain things, it will become part of my medical records.

Should I ever need legal help, due to anything – abusive, manipulative people, will use whatever I have on my medical records, against me.

I don’t intend taking that chance. It’s bad enough having PTSD on my medical records – which is little understood by so many.

I do not intend to allow my PTSD etc, to be used as scapegoat again, this has already happened by church people.

I intend being very careful from now on, what I speak about with anyone, even in counselling. I know what I am dealing with, I know why. I have deep insight and awareness of my mind and it’s high capacity to function.

I don’t trust people to do what’s right, because so few do. People use whatever they can, lie, manipulate…it’s human nature.

Paranoid – no.

Vigilant – yes.

Discernment – yes.

Wise – yes.

Insightful into humanity – yes.

Experienced into humanity – yes.

Stupid – no.

Author: Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

I am a survivor of complex and multiple trauma and abuse, who at the age of 40, began my healing journey. I am using my journey to recovery and healing, to help others, to help survivors feel less alone, validated, encouraged and to enable others to understand themselves more. Complex trauma, particularly from severe, prolonged childhood abuse, is profoundly life changing. Complex trauma produces complex adults. The journey to recovery is a painful, often lonely, emotional daily challenge and it is my aim to encourage others in their daily battle. ~ Lilly Hope Lucario

4 thoughts on “Cancelling appt with psychiatrist this week.

  1. sending you a huge huggle. i do completely get what you mean, my BPD was used against me by the CPS, as it made me not a crediable witmess. but please make sure you still get the help you need, lots of love Luce and the others (we are DID)

  2. That is definitely the downside of seeking professional help. I try my best to use discretion when writing notes for client records, but serious stuff does need to be documented. That’s why I haven’t gone to the psychiatrist for a proper diagnosis, I don’t want my career to ever be in jeopardy. I am in therapy though. If it’s anything dangerous I hope you’ll be honest regardless, because safety is important.