It’s my worst fear to not be a good enough mother for my children.
Just watched Dr Phil. A woman was on there whose husband has been having affairs, and she has PTSD symptoms.
She is a mother. Dr Phil said he was really concerned about her and her health and that this has all affected her so badly and her children don’t ‘have all of her’. She of course was really upset at knowing this.
To know my children don’t have ‘all of me’, don’t have the mother they deserve, is beyond painful for me to think about. The shame I feel for not being a mother I want to be for them, is..
I can’t even write about this. It’s too hard.