I crave and need my time alone, every day. It is vital for my capacity to cope with severe complex PTSD.
I’m not sure how I am going to manage, with my husband home now for 3 weeks and in a weeks time, my children are on school holidays for 2 weeks.
I love my family deeply – but I do not cope well around them, in large doses and need the time they are in work and school, to de-stress and do my thing and be alone.
I don’t want to have to write this, but I am always honest and this is going to ‘interesting’. My emotional numbing is great at the moment, but how long that will last around 2 busy boys, an impatient husband and no regular breaks – well…
My eldest child is booked in for camp a few days, each of the two weeks of the holidays, as he loves all the physical activities, canoeing, rock wall climbing, hut making etc. Stacks of fun for him, being a physical, social boy.
I’ve asked my husband to take them out a few times, when I need a break, which he is fine about.
But, he wants to paint 3 bedrooms while he is off. *sigh. Continue reading