I have given up expecting anyone to understand the intense pain that comes with grieving the betrayal, of loving people so much, who have caused you so much pain, damage, abuse and harm.
To have both parents be abusers, who set me up to be abused, and then so many after that, has caused wounds so deep, I fear they will never be healed.
My multiple trauma’s are not set out as separate trauma’s on a timeline, independent of each other.
Each one impacted the one before it, until all the trauma’s are heaped on top of each other, causing such heavy and deep wounds, that it is unbearable to deal with the pain.
The impact of multiple trauma’s, from birth, by all the significant people in your life, is beyond cruel.