I love this picture and it reminds me of who I am. Both of these people – combined into one.
A wise old soul, wise beyond my years. As my previous counsellor confirmed to me when I said I felt like I had lived 10 lifetimes and she replied ‘and you have 10 lifetimes of life wisdom as a result’.
But, I also know, I have my hurt, abandoned, vulnerable, scared inner child within me too.
It makes for a complex life, and a complex way of living, that means I relate to little around me and little in others.
It’s a constant tug of war within me, of understanding so much, so deeply, but being scared to death and fearful of all this…all at the same time.
My mood can change quickly, from wise deep introspection and insight into so much….to fear and being scared like the abused, scared, fearful child I was, that still resides within me.
I am still processing this realisation, as I always process everything very deeply and it takes me time as a result.
A word that features very strongly in my life.