Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

A journey to healing from complex trauma.

“I am a complex combination of wise old soul & hurt, abandoned, vulnerable inner child.” ~ Lilly Hope Lucario

I love this picture and it reminds me of who I am. Both of these people – combined into one.

A wise old soul, wise beyond my years. As my previous counsellor confirmed to me when I said I felt like I had lived 10 lifetimes and she replied ‘and you have 10 lifetimes of life wisdom as a result’.

But, I also know, I have my hurt, abandoned, vulnerable, scared inner child within me too.

It makes for a complex life, and a complex way of living, that means I relate to little around me and little in others.

It’s a constant tug of war within me, of understanding so much, so deeply, but being scared to death and fearful of all this…all at the same time.

My mood can change quickly, from wise deep introspection and insight into so much….to fear and being scared like the abused, scared, fearful child I was, that still resides within me.

I am still processing this realisation, as I always process everything very deeply and it takes me time as a result.

Complex.

A word that features very strongly in my life.

Author: Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

I am a survivor of complex and multiple trauma and abuse, who at the age of 40, began my healing journey. I am using my journey to recovery and healing, to help others, to help survivors feel less alone, validated, encouraged and to enable others to understand themselves more. Complex trauma, particularly from severe, prolonged childhood abuse, is profoundly life changing. Complex trauma produces complex adults. The journey to recovery is a painful, often lonely, emotional daily challenge and it is my aim to encourage others in their daily battle. ~ Lilly Hope Lucario

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