Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

A journey to healing from complex trauma.


Existential Crisis.

I think I am having this. Apparently old souls go through this. Maybe that’s what it is.

I have been sat thinking about what is the point of life. I know faith wise, it is to have a true relationship with Jesus. But after that, what is there?

I hate much of what I see in this world. I can’t be one of those people who can ignore all the bad and focus on the good. I’ve seen and felt too much bad myself and know the deep suffering it causes, and have too much empathy for others, to just ignore it. To make my life nice and comfortable.

I don’t have that ability to shut out all the bad.

I don’t know if this makes me a really bad Christian, or a really good one right now.

I’m not God. I don’t see the point of this world existing with all the suffering, all the abuse, all the harm, violence and pain that goes on.

I don’t see the point of a world where evil exists and humans choose it. And worse, so called ‘Christians’ choose it.

I know there is the hope of what is to come, but why all this suffering first? Am I a bad person to desperately not want all this evil and suffering to be occurring? Continue reading