I get told all the time how much courage I have. And even though I have spent my life feeling weak, I do see that due to the life I have endured, I am strong.
I see I have needed to develop deeper levels of courage and strength, to survive it all, that many people will never need.
I am beginning to wonder if people who I see clearly fail to have spiritual integrity/courage, don’t have this, due to not ever having to need it to survive?
Courage only grows, when needed.
It’s like developing muscles. You only grow muscles, when you exercise them, and it hurts, because if it doesn’t hurt – you are not pushing yourself hard enough. You see these body builders in the gym – and they put themselves through pain to grow their huge muscles. You can see the strain/pain in their bodies and in their faces. The more they do this, the more pain they go through – the bigger the muscles get. And courage is like this too.
Courage only comes from deep adversity, challenges and hardship, and I believe courage can be born from the fires we have to walk through. So, it’s much easier to walk through just a few little fires in life, than endure and survive really massive ongoing, raging, burning fires which test the person and grow the person far more – if they are able/willing.
Not everyone who goes through a test of spiritual integrity and courage will pass, most will choose the path of least resistance and comfort – which is not the path required. And many others will condone this. They will pick and choose Bible verses to suit, selective Bible verse abuse being common.
So, if church people are allowed, enabled and encouraged to be weak in their spiritual integrity, then they will never need to grow any.
Yeah sure, you will have your Bible parroters and those who claim to know so much, but without firstly the right understanding of the Bible, and then the integrity and courage needed to actually apply it in those bigger tests in life, they will fail.
And of course, being sinful people, will use all manner of excuses and justifications to be okay with that and just reject anything that conflicts with that.
Maybe this is partly why church people piss me off. Because they just don’t have this level of emotional/spiritual courage/integrity needed to deal with important issues, where evil is occurring and they fail because they cannot and will not step up in a way needed.
Their lack of insight into people and their behaviours, will also affect their judgment.
More to ponder on.