My doctor/counsellor is away but has suggested I see another doctor/counsellor due to my current state of mind. I know this is needed and I am blessed to have people that I can see, who will try to help. But, I feel pretty numb.
I don’t really know how someone who doesn’t know my past, doesn’t know me, doesn’t understand why I feel the way I do, is going to help. It’s hard enough for me to talk to a counsellor I’ve known for 2 years, let alone someone I’ve never met.
My husband says I have to go.
I don’t want to.
But I also know when I least want to talk to anyone, is the time I need to the most.