Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

A journey to healing from complex trauma.

I am every immature church persons…..nightmare….especially for the men.


I realise that my challenging of so much I see within churches, is a freakin’ nightmare for many.

Especially all those who have been brought up in churches – where as children they are forced to have blind obedience and submission and of course ‘women must keep quiet’.

I do see, I am very problematic to all these deceived people, stuck at a very immature level of faith – at stage 3, where most will remain all their lives, very evidently leading to these mind controlled, sheep like people, who don’t challenge, don’t question, just accept, believe what they are told, like docile sheep.


I see the fact that I challenge the mind controlled issues many have, is very unusual to them – and they will not like this and I won’t create many friends.

But, you know, my faith, is the most important part of my life and I don’t intend to compromise that – to make friends with deluded, deceived church people.

I am way beyond that and just because they can’t understand that – is not my issue – it is theirs and it is their sin, to not challenge themselves and their thinking.

I know a ‘woman’ challenging men in conservative, right wing churches – is such a huge issue to them!!! Poor darlings, I know their ego’s get hurt by that and it threatens their need to be dominant and be ‘the man’.

I suggest these people read the part in the Bible where Jesus was absolutely okay with Mary speaking up about how all 12 disciples were wrong and Jesus did ‘not’ tell her to be quiet. All 12 disciples (all men) were wrong and it needed a woman to speak truth and sense….

Yes, church men – a woman can speak up and can correct you – shock of all horrors!!!

It is not my issue if you are going to interpret other verses incorrectly and have selective Bible verse abuse, to meet your earthly desires. Your sin, your issues.

I don’t tolerate abuse and abusing God’s Word, and that does not make me wrong – just because church people cannot handle it.

I know many won’t like my honesty, courage to speak up, integrity, faith progression…

But, I truly am not concerned about that – because the truth must always be spoken.

Author: Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

I am a survivor of complex and multiple trauma and abuse, who at the age of 40, began my healing journey. I am using my journey to recovery and healing, to help others, to help survivors feel less alone, validated, encouraged and to enable others to understand themselves more. Complex trauma, particularly from severe, prolonged childhood abuse, is profoundly life changing. Complex trauma produces complex adults. The journey to recovery is a painful, often lonely, emotional daily challenge and it is my aim to encourage others in their daily battle. ~ Lilly Hope Lucario

2 thoughts on “I am every immature church persons…..nightmare….especially for the men.

  1. I was also abused in a church many years ago and I know what you are talking about and I am glad you are speaking out!

    • I’m so sorry you abused in a church as well.

      My role, is to help people abused, and this applies to those abused in churches, as abuse is increasing everywhere.

      If people don’t speak up, how will anyone be educated to know this is not okay and how to change.