Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

A journey to healing from complex trauma.

Why I have to be my own best friend ~ Lilly Hope Lucario

People who have a vestige interest/loyalty outside of your needs, will not be acting in your interests.

Whenever their loyalty lies greater elsewhere, whether that be their own ego, their own shame, their reputation, they will lose in some way, they will encounter issues they do not wish to deal with, they will be disliked by others, it will cost them money, you no longer serve their needs, it will be uncomfortable for them etc…

They will find a way, to not be acting for your needs.

It doesn’t leave many people who would be willing to be there for you, in a real way.

In fact, it leaves very few.

Continue reading

I knew I had a very different heart to many, before the age of 10.

This quote/poster is travelling cyber world at the moment. On Facebook alone, one of these has been shared 185,000+ times.

This post is aimed at adults. I know many adults who seem to believe that most people are good and have the same hearts as they do.

Interestingly, some of these are good people – who wrongly believe most people are good too.

And many who are not good, and are in fact narcissists, sociopaths, psychopaths, misogynists, liars etc – who also believe everyone is the same as they are too.

I grew up in what I term a ‘garden of evil’. Abused from birth, abusive parents & sisters, paedophile/sex offender ring, and all of the above named types of people. 

I ‘knew’ – before the age of 10 – I was different to these people. I ‘knew’ what they were doing was wrong and bad, even as a child. My old soul and spiritual protection. I ‘knew’ my heart was VERY different to these people, before the age of 10, and that people with dark hearts very much exist and in big numbers and are so different to what is good. Continue reading


Poem – Inner Child’s Pain, Of Letting Go ~ Lilly Hope Lucario

My needy inner child

Desperately searches for

What she never had

Scared to her core


To face and know

You cannot be

What I need

For the child in me


‘Letting go’

Words I fear

You are in my heart

This pain severe


To let go

And lose these dreams

Of the search ending

Fragile, unheard screams

Continue reading