Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

A journey to healing from complex trauma.

I knew I had a very different heart to many, before the age of 10.

This quote/poster is travelling cyber world at the moment. On Facebook alone, one of these has been shared 185,000+ times.

This post is aimed at adults. I know many adults who seem to believe that most people are good and have the same hearts as they do.

Interestingly, some of these are good people – who wrongly believe most people are good too.

And many who are not good, and are in fact narcissists, sociopaths, psychopaths, misogynists, liars etc – who also believe everyone is the same as they are too.

I grew up in what I term a ‘garden of evil’. Abused from birth, abusive parents & sisters, paedophile/sex offender ring, and all of the above named types of people. 

I ‘knew’ – before the age of 10 – I was different to these people. I ‘knew’ what they were doing was wrong and bad, even as a child. My old soul and spiritual protection. I ‘knew’ my heart was VERY different to these people, before the age of 10, and that people with dark hearts very much exist and in big numbers and are so different to what is good.

Yet, I see so many people oblivious to this, who never learn this right through adulthood, or only later in adulthood.

I didn’t have to mature in adulthood by learning this lesson. I learned it as a young child. I was already an adult, by the age of 10. Treated as an adult, made to be a parent, used sexually by others. In childhood I was fighting the war of abuse and evil. In my teenage years, I was fighting even more and to stay alive.

This is why I have an old soul. I was never a child. I grew up, way faster than most. And is probably why I have never related to people my own age.

I was always decades ahead of my years.



Author: Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

I am a survivor of complex and multiple trauma and abuse, who at the age of 40, began my healing journey. I am using my journey to recovery and healing, to help others, to help survivors feel less alone, validated, encouraged and to enable others to understand themselves more. Complex trauma, particularly from severe, prolonged childhood abuse, is profoundly life changing. Complex trauma produces complex adults. The journey to recovery is a painful, often lonely, emotional daily challenge and it is my aim to encourage others in their daily battle. ~ Lilly Hope Lucario

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