To have a heart that isn’t filled with so much pain.
To have anyone understand my soul. I accept, this is not going to happen.
It isn’t reality. Painful. But, I need to accept it.
The homesick part, is because I have never had a home, where I am understood, where I belong.
I don’t feel like I belong anywhere, never have. I don’t ‘belong’ in this society I live in. I think it is partly self abandoning, which I read about in Pete Walkers book.
I dream daily, about my home with Jesus, in the future, where I will have an eternal home and feel no more pain.
It’s the ultimate ‘something to look forward to’.