Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

A journey to healing from complex trauma.

Curbing my obsession with tweaking my website….

I am someone who is an all or nothing, kind a woman. I know why, it’s all part of who I am due to my life.

It can have advantages, because I am capable of putting in a huge amount of effort into something I am passionate about and feel is needed.

It can have it’s disadvantages, because it takes over and becomes almost an obsession and I also use it as a very understandable means of avoiding the trauma/pain still not healed, still swirling around my PTSD brain/mind.

Is it avoidance, freeze or flight trauma response, perfectionism, bipolar type behaviours….yeah probably all of them. Possible stuff I don’t know too.

But, it is also completely understandable, for anyone dealing with such severe trauma processing and grieving.

As I keep reminding myself,

It’s not what is *wrong* with me…

It is about what *happened* to me

This helps me to remember, I am VERY normal, for all I have endured, and in fact I have some gifts and strengths born from my life and all I have suffered.

I am learning to stop feeling negative thoughts about myself, because I am not your average person, purely because of all I have endured, which has been an excessive amount of trauma – way out of the norm in the society in which I reside.

So, my website obsession, yes I need to manage it. And I will.

Some days I will do better than others.

And that *is* okay.

Author: Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

I am a survivor of complex and multiple trauma and abuse, who at the age of 40, began my healing journey. I am using my journey to recovery and healing, to help others, to help survivors feel less alone, validated, encouraged and to enable others to understand themselves more. Complex trauma, particularly from severe, prolonged childhood abuse, is profoundly life changing. Complex trauma produces complex adults. The journey to recovery is a painful, often lonely, emotional daily challenge and it is my aim to encourage others in their daily battle. ~ Lilly Hope Lucario

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