The legacy of child abuse….
Far too much awareness of the dark sides of humanity.
No capacity to trust anyone.
A life of feeling completely alone.
A life of trying to fill the void, where a ‘good enough’ childhood was meant to have resided.
Nightmares, intrusive memories, anxiety, hypervigilance.
No capacity to feel happiness, the way ‘normal’ people feel.
An inner child, who’s needs will never be met.
No relationship ‘safe enough’.
No enlightened witness, to help healing.
Fear, isolation, dissociation, shame, pain, suffering.
Existing, not living.
You screwed up my life, really well.
It’s what you wanted.
And you succeeded.