Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

A journey to healing from complex trauma.

Sure is my ultimate fear now…being vulnerable, getting hurt and being abandoned.

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I can intellectually and rationally explain why this is my greatest fear, what caused this, how to address it and what is needed to manage and cope with this….

But, when I am hurt, get triggered, in emotional flashbacks….this fear is so great within me…burned into my very core and every fibre of my being….this fear over-rides everything.

I have to accept I have endured so much trauma, from so many people, that this is my normal state of being….fear. And it drives me to life threatening emotional states.

Trauma over the last few years, has damaged my healing, damaged further any capacity to trust and I have to take it easy and slowly heal all this.

I know I need to stay away from potentially toxic and traumatised/triggering situations/people.

I won’t heal, unless I start doing all of what I need.

Author: Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

I am a survivor of complex and multiple trauma and abuse, who at the age of 40, began my healing journey. I am using my journey to recovery and healing, to help others, to help survivors feel less alone, validated, encouraged and to enable others to understand themselves more. Complex trauma, particularly from severe, prolonged childhood abuse, is profoundly life changing. Complex trauma produces complex adults. The journey to recovery is a painful, often lonely, emotional daily challenge and it is my aim to encourage others in their daily battle. ~ Lilly Hope Lucario

One thought on “Sure is my ultimate fear now…being vulnerable, getting hurt and being abandoned.

  1. Who knew feeling something outside of my ptsd norm could even be fearful although the consequence might even produce feelings of love joy connectedness to the human race, feeling alive? Went back to therapy, proud of my risk taking, and ptsd work. Now I just want to hide out, feel safe, comfort, and not deal with some of my feelings or flashbacks. I really need a hug please.