A post I wrote on my FB page.. @ https://www.facebook.com/HealingFromComplexTraumaAndPTSDAndCPTSD
My trauma induced survival/coping strategies, still kick in when I am triggered, or highly emotional and particularly when emotional flashbacks occur….
I realise all the stuff I know intellectually about more adaptive coping strategies, boundaries, emotion control… go straight out the window….and I revert immediately to my usual coping methods….isolate, withdraw, self hate, complete distrust of anyone and it all spirals downwards…
And then I am back in that horrible, dark trauma hole, of loneliness, fear, massive hypervigilance and complete lack of feeling safe.
I also lose some of the capacity for rational thinking, but my survival needs my PTSD brain knows so well – that have kept me alive – clearly overrides anything I have intellectually learned in the last few years.
But…….I accept this is okay and I am glad I am aware and insightful to know this is occurring – which is progress, and just keep working on it…one day at a time.
Do you relate? If you do, please know, I am with you in this journey and this is why I share this with you.
If you are past this and able to now stop these trauma responses occurring, please tell us, it gives us hope and we can celebrate your further progression in this healing journey.
~ Lilly Hope Lucario
I am glad, that now I am 2 years along past the time I wrote this blog, I can say I am far better at managing my trauma responses, my emotions, emotional flashbacks etc. It has taken a lot of work and dedication and effort, but it is worth it.
So please know – there is hope!
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