Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

A journey to healing from complex trauma.

Why am I bothering?


In a world full of people who only want to view things they way they want to….and many will always tell me I am wrong for viewing it differently….I don’t know why I am bothering.

I’m sick of this conflict.

Of defending myself.

Having people tell me, I am the one not thinking clearly.

I am sick of being confused, by people who all have their own agenda’s – which I know every person has.

It’s hardly self care to keep enabling people to do this to me.

There’s a part of me thinks I should quit writing, quit sharing, quit counselling, quit blogging and just stay the hell away from anyone and everyone, so I cannot get anymore shit.

Just accept that I am weird, and so are most people – although most don’t want to admit that – and they will only be nice to you, as long as you say what they want to hear and agree with them, which quite frankly I can’t be bothered with. My people pleasing days are over.

I’ve provided a website, that’s there with info for people to look at.

Accept that is enough, and just be done with everything else.

Author: Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

I am a survivor of complex and multiple trauma and abuse, who at the age of 40, began my healing journey. I am using my journey to recovery and healing, to help others, to help survivors feel less alone, validated, encouraged and to enable others to understand themselves more. Complex trauma, particularly from severe, prolonged childhood abuse, is profoundly life changing. Complex trauma produces complex adults. The journey to recovery is a painful, often lonely, emotional daily challenge and it is my aim to encourage others in their daily battle. ~ Lilly Hope Lucario

2 thoughts on “Why am I bothering?

  1. don’t let them confuse you – you know that you are right, that you have the courage to tell people that the emperor has no clothes. you know that you help so many with your courage and truth. you don’t have to justify yourself to anyone. your feelings are valid

    • Thank you ❤

      I was not a good mood when I wrote this post. I find reactions to things I write, about this topic, really irritating. I don't like people telling me, what I can and can't write, and suppressing issues that need speaking of.

      I didn't have enough energy to deal with it yesterday.