Good days need to be acknowledged, appreciated, and they matter. They really matter.
I went out…..and any day where I get out of the house willingly, without too much anxiety and with a desire to do something good….is a pretty good day.
I bought myself a latte and a magazine and chilled in a fairly quiet coffee shop. Then bought some crafty stuff and inner child stuff. Anxiety wasn’t too bad in the shopping centre and my hives made no appearance, so that was nice.
Had fun with my son, making puppets, chatting and doing what he loves, while taking care of my inner child needs too.
And my mood has remained fairly level, not turning into a ‘high’, or descending into depression…
So, based upon how I feel most of the time……this is a really good day! Even my husband commented that I seemed in a better state of mind.
I haven’t felt emotional, or upset, or thought much about trauma stuff. My mother came into my head today a few times, and I just decided I was not giving that/her headspace today. I guess mindfulness capacity kicked in today, which is also very hard for me. But when I can do it, I do it. Continue reading →
I have read a fair amount of this book, and it is insightful and a good read.
Much of all this, I have already worked out myself about narcs/psychopaths, before ever educating myself on them, because I know them all too well. I have been abused by several, over long periods of time.
All the manipulation, preying on certain people, the focus on protecting image, how they mirror other people’s emotions, capacity to harm others with no remorse, no conscience, lying…
Today, I went to the shops to buy my son some new texta pens, as his are all running out.
So, I decided to buy myself, a girly pencil case, as well as some texta pens for me and some for my 5 year old son. I bought a few girly colouring books of Fairies and Rapunzel and a few cute craft things to make with my son.
My son is very ‘crafty’ at the moment and loves writing, drawing and colouring in too and I am encouraging this.
A few weeks ago, I bought some plain cardboard house cut outs (I love the craft shop Riot), with opening doors, and my son I enjoyed drawing and colouring different designs onto them. His are very boy like, very 5 year old, with lots of solid colours, basic windows, as you would expect from a young child. Mine are cute and girly, with pretty curtains, and a teddy bear in the window, butterflies on the walls, birds on the roof and flowers growing up the walls. Continue reading →