Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

A journey to healing from complex trauma.

Why it’s okay to not be ‘strong’ all the time, and why posts that ‘shame’ me, are not okay.

Post to my Facebook page today..

No matter what I write here, I do always hold onto, or re-find hope for healing, recovery.

Sometimes, I become very overwhelmed, feel hopeless, and like trying to heal so much profound trauma, is too hard.

I only share all of my journey, including these low times, so others know, this does happen and it is okay….we cannot always be positive all the time.

There is a lot of pain and grief in trying to deal with such deep trauma and life changing abuse.

So, we need to give ourselves permission to not be strong – all the time.

It is too big a burden to carry, to be positive all the time.

It is unrealistic and too hard, so I give myself permission, to have times when I cannot be positive. This is okay and needed.

Lilly ❤

A pretty judgmental, ‘shaming’ comment was made, regarding a post I shared about my behaviours in my 20’s, this post followed..

Please know, it can be hard for me to share some of my deeper complex trauma journey, especially behaviours from the past, that are all normal and have psychological reasons.

I am a child sexual abuse survivor, who grew up in what I call ‘the garden of evil’. My step father and mother were in a group of paedophile/sexual offender friends. I was set up by them, to be abused.

This changes who you are profoundly and leads to coping methods and behaviours, that are not the same, as someone who was raised in a non sexually abused environment. My childhood wasn’t ‘good enough’ – it was horrendous.

I already have my own deep issues of shame and pain, to deal with and I don’t expect to have comments here, that makes that worse.

We all need to have empathy that our journey’s can be very different and even if we don’t understand them, either refrain from commenting, or comment in a non judgmental manner.

I share all I do, to help those who may be enduring the same, to not feel alone and know someone understands.

I don’t share, to be made to feel worse.

We all need to be careful, what we say and write


Author: Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

I am a survivor of complex and multiple trauma and abuse, who at the age of 40, began my healing journey. I am using my journey to recovery and healing, to help others, to help survivors feel less alone, validated, encouraged and to enable others to understand themselves more. Complex trauma, particularly from severe, prolonged childhood abuse, is profoundly life changing. Complex trauma produces complex adults. The journey to recovery is a painful, often lonely, emotional daily challenge and it is my aim to encourage others in their daily battle. ~ Lilly Hope Lucario

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