This last week, my levels of feeling exhausted, have deepened.
I am doing a little more, but I’m not running a marathon………..it’s just going to the shops, and playing with my young son, who is on school holidays.
But, I am exhausted. Literally having to lie down during the afternoon and so tired in the evening, but not sleepy tired.
I am confused as to why I am feeling more tired, while doing more self care, than when I do less.
I don’t know whether the constant massive anxiety, having more stress going on – is what can ‘keep me going’ normally, so now I am avoiding unhealthy stuff, and not having the hyper-stress that comes with that……means by body is less stressed, less anxious, and just wants to rest.
Which considering my life and all I have been through………..I can understand my poor body physically needing to rest.
I just tried to explain to my husband, it’s not miserable tired, or grieving sadness tired, or thinking bad thoughts type depression……….just total physical exhaustion.
I’m sure there is some psychological term for this…..removing anxiety and stress, doing better self care, but your body collapsing into physical exhaustion………like my body is saying “okay…my turn….you don’t look after me…..and I am falling apart too!”