
Even though there are some things I am avoiding at the moment, the good part has been the inner child healing I have been able to focus on over the last few weeks. It has been good timing with my 5 year old home for the school holidays. We have played a lot with the tree house I bought us and enjoyed children’s craft. And while I am ‘playing’, I am not zoned out, to the extent I get to, whenever the thoughts about all the trauma processing come into my head.
I don’t think this is mindfulness, because I am really not skilled at mindfulness. I think it is just good old 100% PTSD avoidance. But, it is interesting, that while avoiding, I have used the time, to focus on healthy, healing needs, so that’s progress.
I feel drawn to this inner child healing, playing and allowing myself, to experience, things I didn’t have when I was a child.
And more importantly in a ‘safe’ environment.
This I realised today, is the vital, key part of this. I do feel safe, doing this at home, either with my child, or by myself. I know having read about inner child healing – addressing the ‘safe’ need, is one of the most important steps.
In my childhood, I was never allowed to be a child and I was never safe, so to create a safe environment, for my inner child – is addressing my profoundly unmet childhood needs. Continue reading →
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