Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

A journey to healing from complex trauma.

Sure, I have all these ideas and plans for my future….but…

A thought came to me earlier, when I was helping my 5 year old glue leaves and a stick onto a big piece of paper, to make a tree picture, for him to decorate……

I have all these ideas and plans for my future, write, publish a book, volunteer abroad…

But, if ‘playing’ and taking care of myself, is what makes me happy……would it really be bad, if that’s all I do for the rest of my life?

I’ve been through a lot of abuse, a lot of trauma, a lot of severe harm, for 4 decades….and I want to be happy. I want to have peace. I want to enjoy the rest of my life, with my family.

I’ve already achieved things that help people, with my website and blog. I don’t ‘have’ to achieve anymore. I just think I do. And I want to, to help more people.

I guess in the future, when I am stronger, I will re-visit this, and decide then. There is no need to decide now. I do want to write and have always wanted to write a book and I know I need to learn how to write. I am under no illusion as to my writing capacity needing to be improved.

But, I think it is also absolutely okay, to be happy too. And whatever that takes, and whatever is needed to achieve that long term, I need to do.

I have endured so much already….so being well, being happy, enjoying life, is okay and needed.

No guilt required.

Author: Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

I am a survivor of complex and multiple trauma and abuse, who at the age of 40, began my healing journey. I am using my journey to recovery and healing, to help others, to help survivors feel less alone, validated, encouraged and to enable others to understand themselves more. Complex trauma, particularly from severe, prolonged childhood abuse, is profoundly life changing. Complex trauma produces complex adults. The journey to recovery is a painful, often lonely, emotional daily challenge and it is my aim to encourage others in their daily battle. ~ Lilly Hope Lucario

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