I realise that writing and publishing a book, requires self promoting, but oh my…I do not want to turn into someone who uses ‘every’ opportunity to self promote, ‘every’ post is about ‘the book’ and develops that grandiose sense of self esteem.
I realise ‘success’ is considered by some to be about sales, no’s of books sold, pitching to publishing houses, but I don’t want to be concerned about this.
I don’t want to become obsessed and be obnoxious in the process. I don’t want to value my ‘success’ on outer value of ‘sales’, money ad all the processes of pitching to publishing houses etc. I definitely don’t want my face to become known, or become a media whore, or become well known. It’s why I use a pen name, for everything.
I’m not in this for ego. I’m in it for helping people. Sure it can be therapeutic to publish a book, it can be part of healing, but developing an ego and an inflated sense of self esteem and becoming obnoxious in my self promotion…..not for me. I want to retain humility, keep my focus on the drive – publishing a book that helps people.
I would put a book I wrote on my website and promote it through my PTSD social media accounts, but as for all the other ways to self promote, I just don’t want to be involved in all that. I already see all the perils and dangers of that.
My aim and focus must always remain about helping people. If my book only sold one copy and that helped someone, it would be enough.
My biggest Mental Health inspiration/author – Pete Walker – doesn’t promote his book everywhere. It’s on his website and people can find it via that and his book changed my life, due to reading such deep insight. And I have promoted his book a lot and it has changed other people’s lives too.
It’s not about numbers, sales, delusions of grandeur, inflated self esteem, that is not good, not healing and not character traits I want.
Ego can be tested all the time, and I always want to fight that and remain with humility and not need to have ‘outer’ success.
And if the book happens, it happens. If it doesn’t, it doesn’t.
It will not be a marker of my self worth.