Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

A journey to healing from complex trauma.

How have you not ended up in a mental asylum?

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I have been asked this question many times.

I have been through a massive amount of trauma, certainly enough to no longer be here, or have been admitted to hospital. I have been told in counselling, I am a walking miracle.

I should give myself credit, that I haven’t been in hospital.

And this is not meant in any way as disrespect to anyone who has been admitted and required inpatients residential treatment. I have great compassion and non judgment for anyone’s journey.

This is simply an acknowledgment of my inner strength, to keep myself to a point of not becoming so mentally ill, that residential treatment becomes necessary.

I do believe for my journey, it has been about inner strength. I have a severe mental health disorder, that could easily decline into psychosis and losing touch with reality to a point where I need residential treatment to manage it.

But, I know when that reality is coming closer and I have been able to stop that decline in it’s tracks. And whilst I do also credit my faith and God for this, I have needed to have the willingness and inner strength to do what is needed, to keep myself from my mental health declining to a point of requiring management in hospital.

I am not saying this will never happen. Never say never. But, I do truly hope and pray this will never become an eventuality. I don’t want my family affected to that extent and I know this is part of my drive to ensure this does not occur.

I think my great need for my health to not hurt others, does help in my capacity to keep my mental health from declining.

I have also had the inner strength to reach out, before it become too far gone. I have had the resilience so far, to survive all I have, and pretty bloody well, considering.

I have been told in counselling, I have deep reserves of inner strength and I know I don’t acknowledge that enough.

So today, I will.

Author: Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

I am a survivor of complex and multiple trauma and abuse, who at the age of 40, began my healing journey. I am using my journey to recovery and healing, to help others, to help survivors feel less alone, validated, encouraged and to enable others to understand themselves more. Complex trauma, particularly from severe, prolonged childhood abuse, is profoundly life changing. Complex trauma produces complex adults. The journey to recovery is a painful, often lonely, emotional daily challenge and it is my aim to encourage others in their daily battle. ~ Lilly Hope Lucario

One thought on “How have you not ended up in a mental asylum?

  1. Thank you for your commitment to healing. You inspire me. I am also healing from CPTSD. I am a married 47 year old who is fortunate to have a circle of friends of all ages and backgrounds that engulf me with tenderness and love. I did not marry until I was 36 years old … I think it was meant to be because I have the most amazing and supportive husband. I too have been told that I am a walking miracle by clinicians. I believe I have stayed out of residential treatment because of the fight in my heart to lead a healthy happy life. I know that I am the only one that can make changes in my life. I CHOOSE to attend weekly individual therapy, join a weekly woman’s support group, nurture friendships that fuel me, and stay away from those in my life that cause me pain. I no longer believe that blood is thicker than water. I now create my own family rather than mourn the loss of a mother, father, sister, etc. I am no longer a victim and BELIEVE in listening to my what m mind, body, and soul is trying to tell me. It is a continuos battle but no longer a torturous one….it’s more like training for a marathon… I am fueled by the energy and potential. I, like you, hope to share my story someday so that others can realize that you do have the right to lead a beautiful life full of joy and love….and it is possible. Thank you again for spreading love and support.