Had conversation with an ex-soldier about the psychology of psychopathy and he described having learned this capacity to switch off emotions to kill people. And how he thinks this is okay and needed.
Quite frankly, that terrifies me.
That capacity to shut off emotions and end human life and cause human suffering, for whatever reason.
I can’t cope with that.
Had flashback of the sadistic psychopath, and his capacity to ‘switch off’ – to do what he wanted. It was still a ‘choice’ to cause human suffering. I could see it in his eyes, they would go black as he did all the terrifying torturous stuff. And I dissociated to cope with all the pain, all the severe abuse.
I’ve been on the receiving end of psychopaths.
And it is terror.
Numb writing this.