“As a child I felt myself to be alone, and I am still, because I know things and must hint at things which others apparently know nothing of, and for the most part do not want to know.” ― C.G. Jung
I have always known my sense of being alone, in human terms.
There has always been an awareness of a separation between myself and all other people. I have always felt disconnected and viewing the world from behind a glass divide. An invisible barrier, others do not see, but I know is there.
I have given up trying to explain this and I know most don’t understand. I do connect on a soul level with a few people via the internet, which is my safe way of communication.
But, in reality terms of people physically in my life, I am alone. Completely alone.
When I think of this too much, it evokes great pain. Activating too many emotions regarding those who in their sadistic need to inflict and project their own pain, created this aloneness in my childhood, and forced me to endure so much a child should never know. A childhood, where no-one was safe, danger always imminent, no comfort or love to be found.
I am aware, this is the cause of my aloneness. Not a great mind, like C.G.Jung, but a mind that knows more than is average about humanity, about the inner darkness within people.