Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

A journey to healing from complex trauma.

I have my ‘ego’ tested every day….and this is my response…



I love to remind people on my pages……..I am indeed *not* awesome, amazing, incredible, wonderful….or any of those ego enhancing, unrealistic, non honest sayings people love to consider themselves.

I read these comments about myself all the time and it is lovely of people to say nice things to me, but I am aware of keepin’ it real!

I am a flawed human being – as we *all* are……..with strengths, weaknesses, good and bad, areas I need to develop, areas already very well developed.

I try to do good and sometimes I succeed.

And I have and want humility.

I am a wisdom seeker, wanting to grow to be all I can be, and I *know* this is a life long journey.

Others have more wisdom than I and I passionately seek this. Others have some different wisdom and many teach me through my journey, not even realising they are my teachers.

I am a lifelong student.

I am not better than anyone, but know I am different to many.

What I am *not* – is awesome, incredible, amazing, wonderful etc

And nor do I want to be.

Nor will I ever be.

Author: Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

I am a survivor of complex and multiple trauma and abuse, who at the age of 40, began my healing journey. I am using my journey to recovery and healing, to help others, to help survivors feel less alone, validated, encouraged and to enable others to understand themselves more. Complex trauma, particularly from severe, prolonged childhood abuse, is profoundly life changing. Complex trauma produces complex adults. The journey to recovery is a painful, often lonely, emotional daily challenge and it is my aim to encourage others in their daily battle. ~ Lilly Hope Lucario

6 thoughts on “I have my ‘ego’ tested every day….and this is my response…

  1. I am on a constant search to become more not because I don’t think I am enough. I know I am enough. I am on this search to become more because I want to feel alive after so many years of feeling dead inside.

    • I think there is a difference in not feeling enough and knowing we are still needing to learn and grow.

      We are enough – but it is wisdom to know we need to continue to grow and that we can always be learning.

      It isn’t about beating ourselves up for not being good enough, and not being perfect (my former self harm issues)…

      But, it is not healthy to believe we are amazing an awesome either…..because it is not reality – that is ego.

      You are enough….and it is your wisdom to know you still want to grow ❤

  2. You are helpful. Kind. Caring.

  3. Maybe people just appreciate you. Since very few people are validated….you are helping them…and they feel awesome ! Just my take on the subject.
    Maybe you are able to put into words what others can not;.