I have learned trying to not think about the past stuff….is not possible.
PTSD does not allow you to ‘leave it in the past’. My mind wants to process it all continually. It never stops wanting to think about it all. It has quite rightly, felt like torture.
But, I am getting much better at allowing myself a time period for these past trauma emotions to be felt and then tell myself after say e.g an hour, to stop, and start thinking about something else.
The stuff that is meant to be ‘parked’ – is not staying parked – and I have stopped assuming I can avoid it completely. So, I am allowing myself – for a little while each day – to think about it, feel the emotions, play music about it, write about it, cry about it…. Continue reading