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Poem – True Love Hurts

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True Love Hurts ~ Lilly Hope Lucario

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Love is pain

Messages seared

Into her core

If it doesn’t hurt

It’s not love

This pain

I need

I deserve

Their voices

Replay

Painful love

So young

‘It’s how I love you’

Any love craved

Than none

Your love

Your pain

I know I need

Voices all echo

Within

Hurt me

But please please

Don’t leave me

Don’t abandon me

Dominating fear

I will do anything

All your dark desires

Die for you

Your pain I will take

Onto, into me

I love you forever

But, please stay

.

Please

Don’t be too rough

Not too much

Not too long

Hit me

Hurt me

But, hold me after

Reassure me later

Then it’s okay

You didn’t leave

You stayed

It’s love

I know

.

You’re here

Still.

True love

.

And true love

Always

Hurts.

~ Lilly Hope Lucario

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Author: Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

I am a survivor of complex and multiple trauma and abuse, who at the age of 40, began my healing journey. I am using my journey to recovery and healing, to help others, to help survivors feel less alone, validated, encouraged and to enable others to understand themselves more. Complex trauma, particularly from severe, prolonged childhood abuse, is profoundly life changing. Complex trauma produces complex adults. The journey to recovery is a painful, often lonely, emotional daily challenge and it is my aim to encourage others in their daily battle. ~ Lilly Hope Lucario

One thought on “Poem – True Love Hurts

  1. Reblogged this on Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD and commented:

    As I am only recently coming to terms with my re-enactment and self harming issues…..caused by so much severe abuse in the first 20 years of my life…
    it is pretty clear that when I write poems like this….which came from an emotional flashback of feeling the way I did in my teens…
    That the damage caused to me, was very deep.
    I do equate sexually intimate relationships with this past abuse.
    My body learned to respond the way it’s meant to….but with abuse, as happens in many sexually abused children/teenagers.
    It is hard enough to confront and acknowledge this.
    But, I have to acknowledge it and accept it as part of who I am, to be able to start to deal with it.
    Although how to deal with it…..within my current situation….seems like it will be impossible.
    And that then creates fear and hopelessness.
    *sigh.
    The affects of child sexual abuse……are horrific and only those who have endure this understand.
    It is like the abuse is continually repeating and you are stuck and can’t get out it, other than to not be in a relationship at all, which I totally understand why people make that choice.
    Child sexual abuse, and not receiving any support or love to help deal with……is horrific.
    The affects can last a lifetime and I see that clearly too.