Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

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Poem ….Your Knife, Is Love ~ Lilly Hope Lucario

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*** Trigger Warning.

This poem is about the wounds inflicted by so much child abuse, including child sexual abuse and how that can create self harming issues, where a survivor equates pain, with sexual intimacy and continues the harm to self, inflicted by past abuse.


Your Knife, Is Love ~ Lilly Hope Lucario

bed

. 

Childhood

Garden of evil

Knives of pain

Much harm

Internalised

“This is love”

This pain

Say many

In words

Actions

Abusers

Absorbed

Continuing

Their evil

Steel blade of pain

Now her norm

Seeking it

Craving it

Abuse

Pain

Betrayal

Evil

Your knife

Going in

I need your love

Please hurt me

More 

Degrade me

More

Your knife

Those wounds

So deep

I crave them

Needy

For them

The pain

Of your

Special love

I know

I deserve

Only

Intimacy

.

I know

 .

~ Lilly Hope Lucario

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Author: Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

I am a survivor of complex and multiple trauma and abuse, who at the age of 40, began my healing journey. I am using my journey to recovery and healing, to help others, to help survivors feel less alone, validated, encouraged and to enable others to understand themselves more. Complex trauma, particularly from severe, prolonged childhood abuse, is profoundly life changing. Complex trauma produces complex adults. The journey to recovery is a painful, often lonely, emotional daily challenge and it is my aim to encourage others in their daily battle. ~ Lilly Hope Lucario

3 thoughts on “Poem ….Your Knife, Is Love ~ Lilly Hope Lucario

  1. This particular poem wrenched my inner being and brought tears to my eyes, I feel I don’t need to elaborate here, but I hear you and know what you feel, big hugs your way!
    My intimacy is with my creativity and always has been for as long as I remember, it was the balance to the harshness of my reality and is such a beautiful place to be. I know I’m very blessed to have been gifted with this magical place of just being, it’s been a life saver for me many many times. 🙂
    If you do choose to have a peek at my world, one of the first posts I did there was a poem called ” The journey part one ” The poem is a condensed version of my “life journey ” up to the point of writing it and sums it all up I suppose. I feel you’ll be able to identify with it. 🙂
    Jen. xxx