Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

A journey to healing from complex trauma.

Getting drunk.


Kids and husband are in bed.

I am getting drunk, so I can get rid of these vile memories and thoughts out of my head.

Headphones on, music cranked up, alcohol going down very easily.

Poem  – She Drinks


Pain to be obliterated

Not feel it anymore

Never ending fucked up life

Burns to the very core


Numbing it out

Coping strategy

Easier than thoughts

Of such pain for eternity


It’s gliding down

Like drinking crème soda

Vile realisations keep comin’

Never fucking over


How much suppressed

Chilling evil caused to me

Little innocent child

Abused so heinously


Alcohol beginning to numb

Overwhelming fear & pain

Scared to know anymore

Scared to go insane


How much more to know?

How much more can she bear?

Never ending evilness

Can’t vocalise, to share


Room starting to swim around

Blood becomes alcohol, in her veins

Slowly numbing it all out

Just swirling numbing fog remains



Author: Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

I am a survivor of complex and multiple trauma and abuse, who at the age of 40, began my healing journey. I am using my journey to recovery and healing, to help others, to help survivors feel less alone, validated, encouraged and to enable others to understand themselves more. Complex trauma, particularly from severe, prolonged childhood abuse, is profoundly life changing. Complex trauma produces complex adults. The journey to recovery is a painful, often lonely, emotional daily challenge and it is my aim to encourage others in their daily battle. ~ Lilly Hope Lucario

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