Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

A journey to healing from complex trauma.

Poem – Yes, It Hurts

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Yes, it hurts

It’s okay

I’m used to it

It’s my life

.

“It’s all you deserve”

“You’re a bad girl”

They all said

.

Many years

Pure hell

Lifetime

Numbing

Childhood

Garden of evil

Never over

.

Hard working

Her independence

.

Hard alcohol

Her numbing

.

Hard men

Her connection

.

Hard self harming

Her need

.

Merry-go-round

Endures

Vile memories

Nightmares

Never ending

Realisations

Grieving

Suffocating

Pain

.

Need this over

Never ending pain

Not as strong

As everyone

Demands

Expects

Needs

.

Too much

To heal

Too much

To remember

Too much

To feel

.

Alcohol

Dissociation

Her old

Friends

They don’t

Expect

Anything

Demand

Anything

.

Numbing

Pain

Shame

Vile

Evilness

Of this life

She wishes

She never

Survived

.

Yes, it hurts

It’s okay

I’m used to it

It’s my life

.

It’s all I deserve

I’m a bad girl

.

~ Lilly Hope Lucario

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Author: Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

I am a survivor of complex and multiple trauma and abuse, who at the age of 40, began my healing journey. I am using my journey to recovery and healing, to help others, to help survivors feel less alone, validated, encouraged and to enable others to understand themselves more. Complex trauma, particularly from severe, prolonged childhood abuse, is profoundly life changing. Complex trauma produces complex adults. The journey to recovery is a painful, often lonely, emotional daily challenge and it is my aim to encourage others in their daily battle. ~ Lilly Hope Lucario

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