I wrote this post the other day, because I am increasingly aware of needing to be a positive/validating role model, for my community. I want to validate how horrendous this journey can be, be very honest, share all of it, and create hope.
I also don’t post anywhere near as much as I used to on my community pages, because I also want to be a better role model with this too. I accept and fully understand why people become absorbed on the internet, it is a coping method and a way of zoning out from the pain of PTSD memories and symptoms. It also is a way of connecting with others who understand.
So I have no judgment of others who do this, I understand, fully. But, as we progress through this journey, it is needed to manage online time and try to focus on other things that help healing too.
❤ A little message from me – with love ❤
This journey is not easy….the last 3 years, since my ‘breakdown’, have been incredibly painful at times. I have nearly not made it a few times, due to feeling suicidal, severely depressed and in intense emotional pain.
So if you feel this way, please know I absolutely do understand and that fear and hopelessness of it never getting better.
It is consistently getting better for me at the moment and although I am still processing deeply traumatic issues, I am emotionally stronger, to deal with it.
I no longer consider it to have been a ‘breakdown’ 3 years ago….I consider it to be the start of my healing/recovery ‘breakthrough’.
I hope this can give a little hope to those who may feel it is never going to get better ❤
So wherever you are at in your journey….whether it be at the start – which can feel a very scary place to be (it was for me)….or in the darkness of severe symptoms, depression, intense pain…..or finding it to be getting easier….or actively thriving due to increasing recovery..
Please know I understand fully and I support you and validate where you are, your journey and your emotions, fully.
Gentle, safe ((((( hugs ))))) to anyone who needs one.
Much love to all, Lilly ❤ ❤ ❤