Women who are ‘pimped’ out by their own parents, from being children onwards….whether that be for money, for fame, for sex…whatever, I often identify with and see their behaviours, their journeys and I relate on some level.
I love Britney Spears, always have done, love her music and I see her obvious major issues with her parents pushing her to become famous etc and the path she went down, leading to clear mental health problems, that are a direct result of the environment she grew up in. But not ever seeing anything….in all the media…. that seems malicious, nasty etc….
I relate in many ways to the evolving of her music, from teenage sexualised Lolita flirt image she was encouraged to be (by those wanting make money out of her), to the highly over-sexualised adolescent – all focussed on unhealthy men, the continuing need for toxic men, the exhibitionism….to some wisdom of understanding what people wanted from her.
I’m A Slave For You….is my favourite Britney song…I knew all the dance moves to this video…
I love this video, it makes me giggle, that part of me and who I was, relates…toxic men..
This song & video makes me cry…
You wanna piece of me….but does anyone actually care?
This is all part of my ongoing journey of who I was, who I am now, and knowing that I need to love myself for all of who I am, who I have been……because all that created who I am now and is part of my ongoing journey. And whilst I have had very unhealthy and wrong behaviours that I do have remorse for, I can’t continue my life feel shame for it all.
And knowing, this means I also need to love others……for who they are now and where they are at…….whilst having the wisdom to know what is acceptable, what isn’t, applying boundaries, knowing how to deal with it better…..and also knowing that adding further shame….is not going to help anyone, nor is it kindness, or compassion.