Due to some very angry rants today/yesterday, the self hate stuff came to the surface. I guess it will do when you receive so many horrible comments and anger dumped on you. And I do know it’s their own hurt causing this and is actually nothing to do with me, and I’m not angry with them ~ which is why I haven’t responded back……but it still really hurt.
This was a response from a lovely friend ~ and I can see is very wise and insightful and I think she is spot on ❤
“I think it is more ‘ok’ to bawl your eyes out (((Hugs)))
Very wise to discuss with your counsellor if you feel as though you are self-sabotaging or ‘brutalising’ yourself with your ‘honesty’, I think it may be a symptom of childhood abuse too.
Sometimes we believe in order to heal that we have to bare all, confess all, in order to have a ‘clean slate’ to begin again. I don’t believe this is necessary to heal, it’s only necessary to be honest with ourselves & God about our possible character defects and poor behaviours.
We can open ourselves up to attack if we reveal some of ourselves to un-trustworthy people. It’s not being dishonest to NOT tell the whole population all our inner most feelings and supposed ‘sins’. You are not disgusting and never will be.
Would you think of or speak to a dear friend like that? I didn’t think so….please don’t speak to my dear friend Lilly like that or I’ll have to release ‘ Ninja XXXX’ on you!!”