Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

A journey to healing from complex trauma.

The bizarreness of my life continues….only with deepening bizarreness….whole new levels of bizarreness…


I had the most bizarre conversation of my life today in counselling. Very needed, but really bizarre.

Details, I am not going to divulge here, because they do not only involve me and I’m not divulging other people’s deeper psychological stuff here.

But…………my life is so bizarre……that all I can say is…..being honest and having to speak about things in a very frank and honest way…..when you have had my life……..is…….well……..I don’t even really have words to describe it.

The good part is ~ I am now so accepting of things in my past and present life, in a way that no mater how horrific and how painful….enables me to actually speak about them.

Plus, I have asked Jesus to help me speak about things that I need to talk about, rather than what ‘I’ think I should talk about…

And interestingly what I thought I was going to talk about….didn’t happen. Not quite sure how that happened, but anyways, I guess that other stuff can wait.

On a different note, it was validating to hear my views on things like the French issue currently occurring, is the right path…and that my wisdom and understanding are continually deepening.

But, I did not plan to speak about what I did today……which probably was a good thing……although now I am in a bit of shock I think……that I actually spoke about some things…….which quite frankly………….are really fucking bizarre.

Author: Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

I am a survivor of complex and multiple trauma and abuse, who at the age of 40, began my healing journey. I am using my journey to recovery and healing, to help others, to help survivors feel less alone, validated, encouraged and to enable others to understand themselves more. Complex trauma, particularly from severe, prolonged childhood abuse, is profoundly life changing. Complex trauma produces complex adults. The journey to recovery is a painful, often lonely, emotional daily challenge and it is my aim to encourage others in their daily battle. ~ Lilly Hope Lucario

2 thoughts on “The bizarreness of my life continues….only with deepening bizarreness….whole new levels of bizarreness…

  1. I usually find those “spontaneous” sessions are often the most significant, but they can leave us in a bit of a trance-like state