Over the last 2 and half years, I have worked so hard on my healing.
Having severe Complex PTSD, as well as severe PTSD, Suicide Ideation and severe Depression……and so many severe trauma to process, trauma that started from birth….is not an easy journey.
In fact, it is fucking horrendous!
Highly abusive sociopathic parents – who set me up to be abused…….
A paedophile who groomed, abused and raped me for years…….
A sadistic sexual psychopath who horrifically abused me for years and went to prison……
An alcoholic gambling addict and abusive first husband…….
An attack with a knife at my throat in a park……
And whilst trying to deal with a breakdown within the last 3 years – also spiritually abused and groomed by a church minister and treated badly by the entire church and endured a corrupt investigation …….
And basically having endured every type of abuse possible in my life….to a really severe level……
I have dealt with a lot.
A fucking massive amount!!!!
And I have done really fucking well in my healing journey, so far 🙂
Whilst also setting up a Community for others….
Reaching out to & helping 1,000’s of people….
Writing an award winning Blog……..
Creating and authoring a highly respected Website…..
Helping many people.
And making the conscious decision to want to learn from every single minute of it all.
And educate myself in so much trauma and abuse related research and info.
And being willing to listen to what I need to change and be willing to take that inner journey, that demands huge courage and vulnerability……and admit all my own shit too……a process I am still in.
Today…..I’m going to feel content with myself,
and acknowledge my deep reserves of courage,
inner strength, integrity to honesty,
empathy for others, compassion for others
and sheer fucking determination, to heal.
Today, I acknowledge all I have achieved and succeeded in.
Today, I am going to allow myself a big fat
‘ You fucking rock girl’!!!!
Whilst also thanking Jesus.. !!!
Because He was there through every second of all this and He is responsible for getting me through all this……..whilst acknowledging I had to be have the willingness and the heart to heal and endure it all….and help others in the process.