Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

A journey to healing from complex trauma.

There comes a point in this healing journey when….

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There comes a time in this healing journey, when we know enough about abusive people, we’ve done enough research and processing about narcissists, sociopaths, psychopaths etc.

And the time needed to process, educate and learn about this….does not have to be a lifetime.

We can choose for this to not be a lifetime.

I know I need to make the choice, after 3 years of processing, educating, learning, crying, and feeling intense pain about it all……..to either let what they are, and what they have done to me….to continue to consume me….

Or have the courage and determination…..to make the needed effort to not allow my thoughts to be about them daily.

And it is a choice we need to make at some point.

To not make this choice….is self harm, self sabotage and a lack of emotional boundaries…..hurting us all the more.

And no-one who has been abused….deserves that.

We deserve good in our lives, joyful and lovely things.

I so truly want everyone I cherish and hold in my heart….to know they deserve the nice, lovely, good things.

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Author: Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

I am a survivor of complex and multiple trauma and abuse, who at the age of 40, began my healing journey. I am using my journey to recovery and healing, to help others, to help survivors feel less alone, validated, encouraged and to enable others to understand themselves more. Complex trauma, particularly from severe, prolonged childhood abuse, is profoundly life changing. Complex trauma produces complex adults. The journey to recovery is a painful, often lonely, emotional daily challenge and it is my aim to encourage others in their daily battle. ~ Lilly Hope Lucario

One thought on “There comes a point in this healing journey when….

  1. I really get where you are coming from with this. This is where I got to. You know it is normal, and is part of the journey on recovery. After all, how much can you say. I think that in the beginning you have so much to say, as you have learned so much.

    Much later…. is there such a need? I started my blog in 2013, I think stats are at 2.5 million (or near that) but sometime last year I felt that I didn’t want to be tied to anymore.

    You know…. that’s ok. I think it is a sign of recovery.

    I have also been healing from severe chronic PTSD. I hadn’t written my blog for a while, not really. It has made me feel sad, to go back and read. When I read the detail of everything. My brain was still in shock, so frightened by what happened to me, I remembered every single detail. its quite sad for me now, as when I started writing I was so traumatised I had no concept of the outside world. It didn’t exist to me. I think it was 10 months after started writing that I had real emotional connection back. It makes me feel incredibly sad – as I didn’t really protect my work. I was too ill.

    Good luck on your journey with PTSD, you can recover from it, EMDR is good. It has been 5 years for me – I am absolutely getting there. But with this comes a lot of sadness as the emotions are coming out after years of numbness. Sometimes I think I would prefer to feel numb x