My solitude….. makes my life worth living.
I need it, I crave it and I cherish it.
It enables me to think, to process, to heal.
And have peace.
I cherish and love my family…. my children, my husband. I find them challenging and exhausting to be around, but I love them deeply and I do everything in my capacity to be a decent mother and wife and consider and address their needs, happiness and growth.
I am pursuing meeting up with selective friends ~ who share the same type of soul and heart as myself. I am excited to be meeting up with a friend next week, for the first time and I know it will be so lovely.
I do enjoy and look forward to my counselling time each week and spending time with someone wise, who I listen to and learn from and have increasing trust in…. which is a first for me….. trust. And I do realise, at some point that will end, as my counselling won’t need to continue forever. Which is something I have not yet got my head around…. and causes me anxiety when I do.
But, I very much need my alone time.
And lots of it.
I no longer ‘need’ people, the way I used to think I did.
I choose to spend time, with those I love and cherish.
But, alone is where I am most comfortable and peaceful.