Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

A journey to healing from complex trauma.

I asked the question I had been avoiding…….. not looking forward to the response.


My doctor/counsellor, is a church person.

I have integrity to my beliefs about child abuse, including physical discipline – being child abuse. And that it is not excusable, or condonable and shows darkness to me, I cannot have in my life.

So, I’ve asked the question, as to whether she agrees with, promotes, enables and encourages hitting children, as okay.

I have to ask it.

I am completely committed to removing anyone who promotes child abuse………. out of my life, immediately.

I will not have that darkness, in my life.

If people are capable of planned intent child abuse (sociopathy) ……. they are capable of any darkness.

I will not allow that in my life.

If she says yes – she hit her kids, or allowed her husband to, and thinks it’s okay – I will no longer be going to counselling.

And I care about her, far more than I should, so this will be very hard to deal with and there will be intense emotions and grieving.

And a deep sense of feeling very disappointed yet again, by another person I wanted to trust. And it will be my own fault I know. I made the choice to go to counselling, I made the choice, to not ask the question a lot sooner…

Preparing myself for the answer.

Author: Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

I am a survivor of complex and multiple trauma and abuse, who at the age of 40, began my healing journey. I am using my journey to recovery and healing, to help others, to help survivors feel less alone, validated, encouraged and to enable others to understand themselves more. Complex trauma, particularly from severe, prolonged childhood abuse, is profoundly life changing. Complex trauma produces complex adults. The journey to recovery is a painful, often lonely, emotional daily challenge and it is my aim to encourage others in their daily battle. ~ Lilly Hope Lucario

2 thoughts on “I asked the question I had been avoiding…….. not looking forward to the response.

  1. I think hitting children is abuse as well but I do have people in my life that choose to hit there children to teach them a lesson. I have thought about not allowing them into my home. I find it to upsetting and I feel powerless when it happens. It only happens every so often and much of the other time the person is a wonderful, loving and caring parent. If I say no to having them in my home I will lose people from my life that are very important to me and who I love a lot. At this point I am not ready to give them up for having a different belief structure than I do. I just love and support the children while they are with me.

    • I accept that is how you choose to deal with it.

      But child abuse, is a level of darkness, that is a deal breaker for me and child abuse is not condonable, or excusable.

      I cannot have that darkness in my life.

      Not after all the abuse I have already endured.

      And if people are capable of hurting children, they are capable of anything.

      That is also a deal breaker for me.

      Doesn’t mean I hate them or believe they are evil…… but darkness in within them.