I will never ‘get over’ or understand the lack of empathy, the deep darkness within someone, who can set up their own child to be sexually abused.
I am still dealing with the reality of this being my own mother.
I have still not processed all my emotions and pain, about this yet.
Dealing with this reality and this depth and severity of betrayal, feels beyond hard at times.
I am still dealing with trauma, deep grieving and current shit – all together.
I must realise how strong I am, to cope with it all, instead of these feelings I am currently having – of what a failure I am and how weak I am.