Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

A journey to healing from complex trauma.

I’m not weak…….. but I still deep inside, believe I am.


I will never ‘get over’ or understand the lack of empathy, the deep darkness within someone, who can set up their own child to be sexually abused.

I am still dealing with the reality of this being my own mother.

I have still not processed all my emotions and pain, about this yet.

Dealing with this reality and this depth and severity of betrayal, feels beyond hard at times.

I am still dealing with trauma, deep grieving and current shit – all together.

I must realise how strong I am, to cope with it all, instead of these feelings I am currently having – of what a failure I am and how weak I am.


Author: Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

I am a survivor of complex and multiple trauma and abuse, who at the age of 40, began my healing journey. I am using my journey to recovery and healing, to help others, to help survivors feel less alone, validated, encouraged and to enable others to understand themselves more. Complex trauma, particularly from severe, prolonged childhood abuse, is profoundly life changing. Complex trauma produces complex adults. The journey to recovery is a painful, often lonely, emotional daily challenge and it is my aim to encourage others in their daily battle. ~ Lilly Hope Lucario

5 thoughts on “I’m not weak…….. but I still deep inside, believe I am.

  1. Your not a failure not at all. You are strong. You are smart. You are beautiful. Your just going through shit and your allowed to feel shit. Cry scream have a bath relax. You did not deserve it. No Child deserves it. All the adults in your life fucked up. They should never have had children. They did not deserve your love. X