Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

A journey to healing from complex trauma.

I don’t know if I can live in this world much longer.


I know my life is not going to get any better. Whatever I do, I am doing the wrong thing. I am failing my children. I’m not strong enough to do what is needed, and I can’t go on much longer.

I can’t do any of this anymore. I want to give up completely. I have no hope for the future. I have no fight left in me anymore to try to sustain anything positive.

I just want to go to sleep and never wake up.


Author: Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

I am a survivor of complex and multiple trauma and abuse, who at the age of 40, began my healing journey. I am using my journey to recovery and healing, to help others, to help survivors feel less alone, validated, encouraged and to enable others to understand themselves more. Complex trauma, particularly from severe, prolonged childhood abuse, is profoundly life changing. Complex trauma produces complex adults. The journey to recovery is a painful, often lonely, emotional daily challenge and it is my aim to encourage others in their daily battle. ~ Lilly Hope Lucario

3 thoughts on “I don’t know if I can live in this world much longer.

  1. You’re doing your best. I’m sure your children know this. I wish there was something I could do/say to make your pain go away. Chin up. Stay strong. You’ve come so far. x

  2. Oh lilly. I wish i could take it all away. I truly know how that feels at the present time and it is so so hard to fight. Everyday. Is a struggle. X

  3. Reblogged this on adifferentlifebeinglived and commented:
    At least somebody else knows how it is. Nobody else gets it. Everybody just ignores it when you say it. Why do people not know how to deal with suicidal People. Sigh